Slow down, breathe, wait and listen to the spirit

Recently I really wanted to go to Madrid to be a part of an event however it did not happen. I was not even angry as I thought that God knows it better, always! God is good, always. Who knows what could have happened if I had gone. God knows. Not me. Instead of going to Madrid I started to slow down a bit. I took deep slow breaths and I went for long walks in the village, where I am currently living.

Villasar de Mar, Spain https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DmDSOhfn_aY

I started to read Streams in the Desert by L.B. Cowman. The book is about prayerful meditations. The spirit was mentioned in this book, not once. Listen to the spirit!

 

`` When you are unsure which course to take, totally submit your own judgement to that of the spirit of God, asking Him to shut every door except the right one. `` 

https://books.google.es/books?id=JhusUrIr42UC&printsec=frontcover&source=gbs_ge_summary_r&cad=0#v=onepage&q&f=false

 I started to work as a freelance teacher but it seemed to be more difficult than I thought. My students wanted invoices however I did not have enough people to teach thus I delved into the solution of the problem facing me. Being your own boss is great, when you have sufficient income to pay the taxes. I am sure, if I had waited more, I would have found more students. Nevertheless, I just did not want to risk it. I sent my curriculum vitae to many schools. No answer. Few days, nothing. Couple of weeks, nobody called me except some schools offering 2-5 teaching hours per week.

I got angry and I sent more CV-s. I really wanted to work. I was desperate. I did not ask for it though!
I was not patient and I was not gentle. I did not have the right attitude. No patience at all.

Patience is an exceptional skill and I have a video about it on YouTube for the reason of that it is crucial for success. Now I know and I practise it every day. 

Patience: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VyfXExQey4Q 

One day I got a text message from my partner. He asked me how I was. I remember that I became really silent, gentle and humble.

I just replied `` I would like to work, please. `` 

I actually sent this request to God, not to my boyfriend. The following day I was walking around in Villasar de Mar. Suddenly I heard a voice in my head (spirit, inner guidance etc...)

`` Buy an exercise book! ``

I went to a stationery shop and I bought a yellow exercise book. As I was browsing around in that shop, my cell phone rang. I picked up the phone. It was a director from a language academy. He asked me if I could go for an interview the next day at 11 am. I told him that I could go.

My yellow exercise book is full of idioms, such as worth (one`s) salt ( I am certainly working on it). I have a really nice group in this academy. I am preparing students for their Cambridge Advanced English Exam. I am very lucky and grateful to God. I also learn a lot from the students.
Deep down, I know and I decided that one day I will be my own boss, but until then I will be ``just`` a humble employee and I will love every minute of it.

 

 

So here I am, sitting in my room in Spain, in Villasar de Mar and I`m thinking. I am ready to use the source of God. I would love to meet Mabel Katz, if you don`t know her then I suggest you to check her and the famous Ho`oponopono. Hoʻoponopono (ho-o-pono-pono) is an ancient Hawaiian practice of reconciliation and forgiveness. Similar forgiveness practices were performed on islands throughout the South Pacific, including Samoa, Tahiti and New Zealand. 

I write poems about faith and God www.writewithwings.com and here I am thinking, yes now I can strengthen my faith. I do not have money to enter Mabel Katz`s event which is going to be in Madrid on the 28th of November this coming Saturday. http://mabelkatz.com/events.htm All I am saying is Thank you and I love you and as I say Thank you and I love you, I truly believe that I can be there no matter what. I trust God and the Universe. I have no other choice as I decided that I want to live a healthy, happy, peaceful life with full of gratefulness for God, who gives us all! I always tried to listen to my inner voice and sometimes I knew that what I was doing was not right and sometimes I was not sure however I try to listen to my heart and not to my rational mind.

The last few days were crazy for me emotionally, job wise and all. It was just that kind of turbulence when you know that something is happening but you really don`t know what. It is a strong energy felt in your tummy and sometimes in your chest. All I did the last couple of days was praying and meditation and saying thank you God and I love you whatever it is coming. I have no job for a while although I had many opportunities. For some reason, doors were just closing suddenly. I was looking for a job every day and then I read something in a book. It is enough to search God then you get everything. I knew this as I grew up in a religious family, I just forgot it on the way.

Now I put my faith into God`s hands. See you later when I tell you what happened.

I am a hungry Hungarian soul. I was born in Budapest. I left Hungary in 2004. I moved to Ireland to Cork city. I used to work in restaurants and hotels meanwhile I was writing on the bus, in the car and whenever the soul sent me a message: ``pen and paper``. I wrote poems, short stories, feelings and whatever came to my mind from the soul.

Ireland is a great place to live.  http://www.writewithwings.com/397373958 Search for the poem: Ireland, the third from the bottom of the page.

After the catering and hotel life I wanted to do something else. I sat down and wrote few things what I really loved. The list included : People, children, elderly, writing, English, acting and being free!
I left my job and got into studying. I completed a one year course, called Social Studies-Disability Awareness. This was run by UCC adult education. https://www.ucc.ie/en/ace/ There are many great programs for people who need to work and want to study.

By the way if you ever go to Ireland, check out Cork and the surrounding area. I want to mention Kinsale and Killarney.

Then I worked as a carer. I cared for elderly people with disabilities such as Alzheimer`s and dementia. It felt good at that time. People told me that I gave them comfort and they advised me to be a nurse. I thought that was so funny since I always wanted to be an actress, who can perhaps play the nurse and many other characters.

I got a job for few weeks. I had to sleep in a house for the weekends with a lady. The house was huge with 6 rooms. I had to cook and read the news and look after her. One day she took a knife, just as a joke, and told me that she was going to cut my hand. That was the day I left the job. God bless her, she was really nice before the knife story.

Then I studied childcare for a full year with an Irish program. After that course, I got a job in a preschool called The Magic Roundabout. I love the name. Check this out if you are a fan of old television programs.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c3DcChXNyYQ
I worked there as a Montessori Assistant. This place is in Dun Laoghaire , near Bono`s place. :)

 I left that job after a year because; I had a calling ;however it was a great experience with great people.
After that I worked with a family with 3 children. Those were the best days of my life. I felt I had a second family. Meanwhile I felt that soon I need to go. I slowly started to complete, teaching certificates : Tefl, Tesol, and some Creative Writing courses.

One day after checking my exercise books and diaries, I created a website www.writewithwings.com so I gathered most of my writings there.